we’re not eternal.
i’m sorry i lied
and broke
the promise of our eternity.
dirty little secret
and i could only keep —
hold on —
this guilt.
breaking
but i was ready
i think, i hope
[i wish]
you can find happiness
in an eternity
without me.
battling sharp pains of loneliness in an extroverted society.
it's pretend extroversion again,
but i can't hide the introversion that binds
itself to me like my shadow.
In my room, hiding underneath the covers, snuggling deep in my bed,
Time passes, dwindling away for dreams. One more moment, please.
Dreams fog up like musky books waiting to be read,
Waiting to be dreamt of. Pure fiction and fantasy clutter the corners
Like chords of a piano, a cacophony of notes, strung close
Against the neck of a guitar. Pencil to paper, I scratch notes
And sketches, attempting to find reality, but always
Giving way to longing. Write snippets of thoughts
"inspired every day"; morph incoherent feelings
Into [sad, lonely, hopeful] dark poetry.
I draw the person I want to be, imagining
A life nothing like my own. D
we’re not eternal.
i’m sorry i lied
and broke
the promise of our eternity.
dirty little secret
and i could only keep —
hold on —
this guilt.
breaking
but i was ready
i think, i hope
[i wish]
you can find happiness
in an eternity
without me.
battling sharp pains of loneliness in an extroverted society.
it's pretend extroversion again,
but i can't hide the introversion that binds
itself to me like my shadow.
i.
i miss you.
phantom touches leave me shivering,
my spine tingling
from your ephemeral presence.
it's suffocating me,
leaving me gasping for reprieve
from these ghostly memories.
these cold, pale fingers try to grasp you,
bring whatever's left closer.
closer to my heart, my soul,
my twisted dreams--
they leave me shaking.
ii.
i need you.
i'm thrashing in my sleep again.
it's hazy and foggy and (strangely enough)
i think i see the persisting insanity of my mind.
the ones who can argue
are only more than happy to push the process along.
[i thought i was already there?]
i'm still at this dead end, where
you left me waitin
Hiya! I've been missing for ages, eh?
I don't know who still checks up on this old thing, but heya! Thanks for sticking around!
I'll be honest... I think I've lost a lot of motivation and whatnot. Both in writing and drawing. Nevertheless, I'm in college at the moment and I've picked up on drawing again, I think. Sadly, I do not have a scanner so I don't think I'll be posting any art pieces up any time soon unless they've been done on the computer.
I really miss writing and I need to get back into it. However, I seem to have lost my inspiration and I've lost the way I used to write. I really do miss it and hopefully, I'll be able to get
Wooo! I borrowed this from ~sharkman7844 (https://www.deviantart.com/sharkman7844) who found it somewhere. [:
I just wanted to try this. Haha, not sure if I'll make through the entire thing. I'll cross 'em off as I go along. Most of them will probably be in poetry form, but hopefully, I can make some art too! :D
http://kikuneechan.deviantart.com/art/001-i-am-159447177 1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. N
i'm going through folders and folders of photographs... some of them are not bad, others are just horrendous.
i just need a new and better camera... :X
- stella
tumblr | formspring
hi ...here the [link] for my new entry crushed cans.... thank you for liking my previous entry but that has been removed from the contest because of colour limit issue. hope you'll like my new entry too...please vote if you like. thank you...